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Aamchi Mumbai, Maharashtra, India
Well,I dont know what to say about myself.. My posts shall say it all..I just belive in believing in yourself and success shall come your way..!! This is my debut as a blogger so i request you to keep visiting it regularly and share your experience :)

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

What The Hell Am I Doing Here?!?!

There are times in everyone's lives when we just wonder what and why am i doing this huh??
Same is the situation with me nowadays. After my 10th std i decided to be a genetic engineer!!! (sounds strange though). But i always sucked at physics. But then too i opted for science and started preparing for my engg exams, IIT AIEEE etc. But in 12th std i decided not to do engg but go in for bachelors in Economics instead. I was pretty confident with my decision. I cleared my entrance for the same course in SSE i.e. Symbiosis school Of Economics. I was called for my GD & PI and i cleared that as well. I was the happiest person on earth that time! But i guess God had some other plans for me. I did'nt get a hostel there in pune :(
Sick people did'nt offer me accomodation in their hostel saying that it was for NRIs and foreign internationals. I was shattered. I had no clue what am i going to do. I had cleared in few of my engg exams, but that time engg was clearly not in my list. I always wanted to go abroad after my 12th for my further studies. But i did'nt have the courage and the audacity to go and tell my dad! I regret it now though. Some counsellor adviced me to do BAF i.e. Bachelors In Accounts And Finance. I had no clue what was that! But clearly that is what i was destined to do because i am doing BAF. I would'nt say i am unhappy but i am not happy either. I wanted to stay in a hostel, get an independent life. I am a freedom loving girl which i would have achieved only if i had been to hostel.
Now my life sucks! I have a stupid college with stupid bunch of people all around. Life is just about studies now. To be something in life, I need to have a MBA degree for which i have to literally slog my ass! There is no escape!
I never really imagined this kind of life. I mean i am 19+ and i still have'nt seen life! Everything has just gone for a toss. And had i been doing engg, i would be in a hostel, no mental pressure to do a PG which now for me is mandatory! I really dont know why am i doing this and how did i land up here! All i hope and pray is that there is something really great in store for me in the future.